They are scattered about the living room. Bodies splayed as if washed ashore during a storm. Their coughs, sneezes and weak voiced whines are barely audible above the drone of cartoons. Foreheads felt, medicine doled out, juice poured...yes, we are sick.
We volley between contented cuddling and exacerbated exhales. After too many hours logged in at home, we are all a bit tense. I switch the tv off for breaks every hour and as the screen blackens the whining intensifies until little eyes flutter shut and naps begin. While one naps, one roams the kitchen unsuccessfully looking for an appetizing bite. Another gives a half hearted attempt at Lego's before finally just laying their clammy head on the rug.
I rarely second guess a decision, but a nagging voice in my head is blaming me for this round of plague. I was in a rush to get home even though I knew my parents had been sick. Mommy guilt to the extreme.
So, we are off to the doctor again today. Our weekly adventure money traded for co-pays.
Monday, February 28, 2011
Friday, February 25, 2011
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
That's what it feels like when I get home to Massachusetts. Everything stops spinning and my body just sinks into relaxation. Only made better by my darling husband (with a moving truck in tow), but for now we will settle for a visit.
Monday, February 21, 2011
So, plans changed - "we will come next weekend" - we said. The weekend came and Mom and Dad were sick. So plans changed again - "Get better! See you Monday!" - we reassured.
Monday is here and it brought 5 fluffy inches of new snow. Driving 4 hours in the snow with 4 little kids by myself just doesn't seem smart to me. So we stay. Maybe tomorrow.
Friday, February 18, 2011
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Despite the lingering snow, we found a taste of Spring this week. I don't know if it was the snow storms, frigid temps, or our bout with various viruses - but BOY did it feel good to stretch our legs and fill our lungs with fresh air!
At the time of this shot, I was mortified. My new camera whacked with a snow ball. But, the camera is fine and I think the picture is pretty cool. And you can't beat that happy face :)
Look Mom, wildlife mere miles from NYC!
Can't wait to do this everyday!
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
My feet turn the pedals faster and faster and soon my thoughts outrace the one wheel. Im immediately transported back 7 years to the summer before I was married. A spinning devotee back then, I may forever associate the bike class with that summer. Out of grad school, a working girl, and planning the wedding of my dreams. I loved being engaged to be married. Full of hope & love, the world seemed ripe with possibilities.
I linger there, remembering and reliving, until the lights are back on and the music stops.
Off the bike, mopping up the sweat, I step out of the past - and I am immediately bombarded with my future.
4 kids come bounding out of the childcare room into my arms - full of hope, love and possibilities.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
We have had too many sick days around here lately. In retrospect I should have used the time at home to organize closets. Clean the attic playroom & storage room. Organize the pantry. Clean out the basement.
Does the list ever end?
Instead I used the time to bake.
As if my thighs needed that!
And take pictures.
And make Valentines. Have you seen ours? Very proud. I would show you but they still have some to give out and I'd hate to ruin the surprise!
And lots of daydreaming.
Mainly about the beach, but also about hikes and playgrounds. About throwing the sliding door open in the morning and enjoying the air all day.
Friday is forecasted to be 60.
A little taste of Spring right here in the middle of the deep freeze. Colby is the last to recover, and Im hoping he is at least 90% by the weekend.
Off today to what I hope will become one of our most special places.
Pictures and stories to come.
hint: we are bringing carrots and apples :)
Monday, February 14, 2011
Let me just say first off, that I love all my kids more than I can say (and they don't read this)! And to my darling husband who I think reads this...I love you & you can be my Valentine too...but...
Friday, February 11, 2011
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Beach anyone? Because like singing, it is pretty much impossible to be grumpy on a beach.
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Don't be mistaken, we sorely missed our buddy Drew - in fact they both asked for him several times. But despite his absence, the day was a success, a pleasure, a gem among snow days spent stuck in the house.
And it was an inspiration to shake things up and see what comes of it more often.
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
I've been afraid plenty of times in my life.
Croup knocked out by some modern medicine. He is such a trooper. Even while gasping for breath he was smiling at the nurses.
When you love someone this much, everything is intensified.
Monday, February 7, 2011
But in the last few weeks Ella has been having trouble once again. Suddenly the thought of going somewhere different or trying something new or even an unexpected trip to a familiar place has just tipped this little girl over.
She is so afraid to step out of our little family bubble and into the great big world. She cries. She bites her nails. She begs to go home or stay home.
But just as quickly as it begins, the whole ordeal ends. She bounces off into the party, the museum, or onto the skating rink and has the time of her life. And there I am standing on the sidelines wondering what the hell just happened! I wonder where it is coming from and how to help her. I read books, exhaust google searches, and lay awake at night coming up with plans. We have been having great talks and Im learning so much about what goes on in my little girls head.
Im hoping this is just another little phase my quirky kids are passing through. Im hoping that Im as good of a Social Worker as I always thought I was. Im hoping Im a good enough Mom to guide her through this.
In the meantime we are bursting the bubble as often as we can...because once she finds the courage to push through her little safety barrier - she truly is the life of the party - and the light of my life.
Friday, February 4, 2011
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Julie is one of those friends that you don't have to see everyday to feel close. We pick up right where we left off. Just as comfortable, just as fun. The icing on top? My entire family loves her. Julie and Mike have always gotten along so well, and he looks forward to seeing her as much as I do.
And our kids agree. They love Julie and ask for her everyday since her last visit.
She is just one of the good ones.
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Will Spring ever arrive?
ps. Who am I kidding...just the thought of buying a dirty water dog turns my stomach. I won't be able to do it. Pizza. Yes, Pizza, that will do.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Last night he was in the center of all 3 big kids while they danced and sang. His legs were kicking like crazy and his smile was so big his nose crinkled. It was one of those moments that will be stamped into my memory forever.