Monday, May 2, 2011

What I told Myself this Morning

Pictures, just because I like them...
 Nana 94 yrs old
 My boys and my brother's boy 
My husband

Here's the thing.

There is a lot going on in the world. There is big news, bigger news, and not so big news. It doesn't stop because someone is in the Pediatric NICU or someone is suffering from Chemo. The rest of the world is running out for coffee and going out to lunch while you have a baby or say a last goodbye. Just when you think the entire world should stop and take notice, you realize they don't. It is bigger than you, bigger than the ones you care about.

Kids need to be fed, diapers changed and laundry sorted. You might as well head to the gym and run a few errands. Even though everything normal seems abnormal and you just want to sit and put your head in your hands. You realize you just laughed at a joke or smiled at a clerk and it seems weird. But you can't stop. You shouldn't stop. Stopping wouldn't help anyone.

So instead of stopping, make the going count. Make the diaper changes a little happier, notice the new flower in the garden, compliment a stranger on their shoes. Gain perspective and keep it. And give whatever you can to make their world better, easier, happier.

What else can you do?

1 comment:

Nonnie said...

Lauren. I am so proud to say that I am your mother. I am so proud of how your heart feels, how your courage shows, and how you are always there for everyone. You are an amazing woman, mother, wife, friend, daughter, and especially . . . my very best friend in the whole world. I am so proud. Your words are so true and sit in the bottom of my stomach right now and feel so heavy. I remember times in my life when I felt exactly like you feel today. It is a "torn" feeling. Why should I be happy when others I care about suffer so much? I guess it is called being human. Smile, my baby girl. You are always there for everyone. They know it.