Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Do you ever watch a realty show and think "wow, these people are going to be bummed when they watch themselves on tv!" Realty shows seem to highlight some of the worst in people. I know they didn't see themselves as that crazy, narcisstic, callous, etc before the show. Won't they be so surprised when they see themselves how others may see them?!
Sometimes I feel like Im living in my own realty show hell.
I see the worst of me get soaked up and imitated by the kids. The frustrated tone of voice. The dramatic escalation of a small injustice. The toys strewn on the floor echoing the laundry in my bedroom.
Kids learn by watching us. It doesn't matter how many times you say to be polite, if you aren't then they won't be. You can talk until you are blue in the face. But talk is cheap, very cheap, when it comes to your little shadows.
I try to remind myself that they are soaking up the good stuff too. The friendly chit chat with neighbors. The polite manners. The exceptional ability to tell a fantastic story. But it is all too easy to notice the bad.
So, I take a deep breath and resolve to be a better person. Because I want my kids to be awesome, better than me.